I have been up since 5.40am today and am just finishing of now.
When I went up to bed yesterday I watched a film which was called Trust a Man.
Well it brought things home to me in no uncertain terms that I was being silly I think even thinking I could go through with meeting another for some of my much anticipated fun.
The film was about a sex addict and his wife and her brother and his girl friend, the friend would not commit and the sex addict eventually lusted after another woman and slept with her.
The thing that brought it home to me was how it destroyed his life and releationship with his wife. Offcourse in a film it all turned out okay in the end but that is not how it would turn out for me and I was silly to think other wise to be honest.
Don't get me wrong I have very strong feelings but I think I would crack up if I got a taste for it and could not live with out it so it is possibly better not to try and loose everyone who is so dear to me..
I hope the lady in question will under stand but I know I have a good thing how ever much I do miss the sex I know I have to do the right thing by her and by me.
Common sense prevails wit hme yet again. How do I have to be so straight laced!!!!
Arse I am, now I am getting annoyed with myself for thinking like this but I know it is for me but its not really....
brokendownangel
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All you can do is weigh up the costs! I am sure you have been through it in your head a million times already. Just ask yourself the cost to you of staying! If it is too high a price to yourself then you must do what you must do. At the end of every day you go to bed and you have to be able to live with yourself, your true self. I wish you well, i really do, it's a horrible decision to make but you must be selfish and think of how staying affects you not anybody else.