Well its been a long day today.
Been up since 6.00am. Things can only get better in a few days lol.
My mind has been wondering again today and also being probed by someone for my intimate thoughts however they have not been about my usual gutter press mind this time.
It has been a serious subject very close to my heart. Any way enough of that I don't want to be good and do the right thing anymore I want to do something for me and myself.
Time will tell I suppose how things will turn out over the space of the next few months. I might have a meet but things have went really quite on that front so I am thinking I may not have one after all for some reason. I think I may be ditched for a better model perhaps with no hang ups possibly. It is one of these things it would be great to happen but terrible if it was know widley with disatrous consiquences really for my life.
Listen to me rambling on. I tend to vist all differnet avenues and add things up and come up with the wrong answers. Which is not suprising as my maths is as good as my spelling!!!
What will be will be...
Deep down I want to have this fun but am really scared of the results it could go either way. I may want more and more and then again I may run a mile and think life is good as it is. (but it is not complete as it is)
I have tended to throw myself into my work again which is not healthy giving all these free hours to the company cause if I am here I am also thinking of work or plugging away at it in between reads of blogs.
Again I am worried but not sure what of!!!